灯願華 ~ NUL.

「灯願華」
NUL.

境界線の向こうへ渡る者
置き去りの心を埋めるような

綺麗な綺麗な青

悲しみだっていつかは消えるもの
でも君を追いやる世界は嫌だ

それでも綺麗な青

訳も無くただ溢れ出す　願いの種は舞うのでしょう
風の気まぐれで君へ届けて

唐突に姿を変え　問いかけ迫る世界は
行方もない　終わりも見えない
伝えることも叶わない
あまりに突然消えた君と重なるよ

訳も無くただ溢れ出す　願いの種は舞うのでしょう
風の気まぐれで君へ届けて

離れたり　寄り添ったり　変わり果てたこの夢も
失くしたり　また壊したり　間違ってばかりの僕等は
人を愛し　傷つける度　大切な事を知るんだ
悔やんだり　立ち止まったり　後悔繰り返した今なら
きっと昨日より深く愛を伝えるだろう
いつか君が生きたこの世界も愛せるだろう

~♦~

Higanbana {Flower of the Light of Hope*}
by NUL.

Souls passing across the boundary line,
It feels like burying the hearts left behind

A lovely, pretty blue

Sorrow is something that will one day fade,
But I hate the world that drove you away

Even so, a lovely blue

Simply spilling out senselessly, would the seeds of my wishes fly
On the fickle wind, sending them to you

Abruptly you seemed different, in a world that pressured and questioned,
Nowhere to go, no end in sight,
Unable to even convey it,
Just like you, who disappeared so suddenly

Simply spilling out senselessly, would the seeds of my wishes fly
On the fickle wind, sending them to you

Separating and drawing close, this dream that changed and came to an end,
Losing and destroying, we did nothing but make mistakes,
Loving someone and each time I hurt them realizing something important,
Feeling sorry and hesitating, now that I’ve repeated those regrets,
I’ll surely be able to convey my love more deeply than yesterday,
One day I’ll also be able to love this world you lived in

* Higanbana actually means spider lily, but the flower’s name is typically written 彼岸花. The song’s title uses different kanji with the same readings [灯 “lamp/light”, 願 “wish/hope” and 華 “splendor/flower”] to covey a double meaning. In Japan spider lilies are usually red in color, poisonous, and associated with death.