Psycho Butterfly ~ Kaya

「Psycho Butterfly」
Kaya

黒い蔓草這うように
意識を絡め沈める眠りは
今夜も訪れず

秒針の音が響く

眠りに落ちるその前
垣間見る あの蝶々

うす闇の中で
艶やかな翅をひるがえしながら
かろやかに舞う蝶
陰欝な色を帯びた闇を裂き
悲しみを抱いて
虚空にゆらめく

ひらひらひら
浮かぶように沈むように
泳ぐ蝶々

ひらひらひら
目蓋の裏 過ぎ去ってゆく

まるで嗤うように

あぁ夜が心を蹂躪する
悪夢のような過去に あたしは今も囚われ
夢みる事も出来ず

うす闇の中で
艶やかな翅をひるがえしながら
かろやかに舞う蝶
陰欝な色を帯びた闇を裂き
悲しみを抱いて
虚空にゆらめく

ひらひらひら
浮かぶように沈むように
泳ぐ蝶々

ひらひらひら
目蓋の裏 過ぎ去ってゆく
嗤いながら

ひらひらひら
今夜もまた逃げてゆくの
碧く陰る 夢と現実 その狭間で
現実に喘ぐ
あたしを残して

~♦~

‘Psycho Butterfly’
by Kaya

Creeping like black vines,
coiling around and submerging my consciousness,
this evening sleep once again does not come

The tick of the second hand echoes

Before I fall asleep
I catch a glimpse of that butterfly

A butterfly dancing lightly,
flapping glossy wings
amid the twilight,
cleaving the darkness tinged with a gloomy colour,
bearing its sorrow,
flickering in the empty air

Fluttering, fluttering
as if floating, as if sinking
a swimming butterfly*

Fluttering, fluttering
vanishing over time behind my eyelids

Almost as if it were smirking at me

Ah, the night overruns my heart,
even now I am imprisoned by a nightmarish past,
unable to dream

A butterfly dancing lightly,
flapping glossy wings
amid the twilight,
cleaving the darkness tinged with a gloomy colour,
bearing its sorrow,
flickering in the empty air

Fluttering, fluttering
as if floating, as if sinking
a swimming butterfly*

Fluttering, fluttering
vanishing over time behind my eyelids
while sneering at me

Fluttering, fluttering
will you evade me again tonight?
Obscured in the midnight blue
at the threshold between dreams and reality,
leaving I who suffers in reality behind

* Here “swimming” could also mean “to get by” in the world or “to stagger/totter”.

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