GOOD BY to MYSELF ~ meth.

「GOOD BY to MYSELF」
meth.

靡く髪で傷痕を隠そう
気付けば心は捻れて消えた
慣れない朝が幾度訪れて、見上げたら太陽が睨むように包んで殺されそうで

酷い言葉で僕を離して曖昧な気持ちで・・距離を計り何度も接してくれる人は
「可哀想だね」って同情を押し売りして、
それが1番惨めだったなんて気付かないまま

変われない脆さで耐え抜いた日々だって・・

生まれ変わる為にもっと必要なものを感じて・・描いていこう
そう幼い頃の希望に満ちた未来を届くまで両手を伸ばして、掴んで・・零さぬまま

柔らかな夜が落ち着く理由は全てを飲み込む様に黒いから
この傷は誰にも触れられない・・
そうだろ?痛みを受け入れてくれる人
何処にいるだろうか?

平気で嘘ついて、近づいてくれるな

生まれ変わる為にもっと必要ないもの切り捨て、新しい環境と気持ちで冷静になれる強さを持ち合わせたならもう充分さ
明日の今頃僕は何時もと違う表情をして昨日までの自分に別れ告げて

何処にいたって心には雨、さよなら今日までの痛みよ・・

いつかは変わっていける

~♦~

‘GOOD BY to MYSELF’
by meth.

Trying to hide the scars with fluttering hair,
before I knew it my heart had twisted up and disappeared,
Mornings I can’t get used to come again and again,
when I look up the sun glaringly envelops me and it feels as if I’ll be killed

Keeping me away with cruel words, with vague feelings..
those who measured the distance and contacted me many times,
saying “Poor thing” and forcing their sympathy on others,
still don’t realize that was the most pitiful part

Those days I stuck it out in invariable fragility..

I’ll feel what’s really necessary to make a fresh start..and draw it forth,
That’s right, until I reach a future filled with the hopes of my childhood
I’ll reach out both hands, take hold..without complaining

The reason the tender night calms me so is because the black swallows up everything,
No one can touch this wound..
Isn’t that right?  Where is the person
who will take in my pain?

Don’t get close to me, telling lies so indifferently

Cutting away what’s really necessary to make a fresh start,
as long as I have the strength to be calm in a new environment and feelings, that’s enough,
Around this time tomorrow I’ll have a different expression from usual and say farewell to the me of yesterday

Wherever I went there was rain in my heart, Goodbye to my pain up until today..

One day I’ll be able to make a change

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