malicious ~ Sugar

「malicious」
Sugar

微かに覚えた違和感と 心無い声は耳を塞がせる
汚し続ける意味を 探しはすれど 求めてもない

思い募らせ 指先だけでも触れさせて欲しい
このまま目が覚めなくなっても良い だから

あの言葉を嘘だと誰かが呼んでしまっても ただそれでも
露と消え暗く沈む儚さをそっと 強く静かに抱いたまま

今漂う危うさに 無自覚な悪意も鋭さを増し
中身の無い微笑み 許されたまま 理解は無いのに

願い曇らせ 罪の痕だけでも残したいだけなら
そのまま目が潰れて見えなくなれば いいのに

その思いは空ろと名付けられてしまっても ただそれでも
血を流しても淡く揺れる儚さはきっと 消えずに 絡みつくように

何故そんな悲しい無邪気さに手を染め
抉り出すような遊戯を楽しむ

思い募らせ 指先だけでも触れさせて欲しい
このまま目が覚めなくなっても良い

君よ
この願いもいつか汚され引き裂かれるだろう ただそれでも
血が流れても灯り続ける儚さをそっと 強く確かに抱いたまま

~♦~

‘malicious’
by Sugar

Faintly remembered unease and a heartless voice fill my ears,
Though I search for meaning which continues to be sullied, I do not long for it

Let my feelings deepen, I want you to let me touch even if only with my fingertips,
so it’s fine if just like this I can no longer open my eyes

Even if someone calls those words lies, even so,
I’ll still remain silently, strongly embracing the transience that sinks darkly, vanishing with the dew

Now at risk of drifting about, I increase the unconscious malice and sharpness,
a smile with no substance was forgiven though there was no understanding

Let my wishes blur, even if all I want to leave behind are the traces of my sins,
it’d be fine if just like that my eyes were ruined and I could no longer see

Even if those feelings are dubbed hollow, even so,
though blood may be spilled the faintly trembling transience will surely seem entwined around me, unfading

Why do I stain my hands with such sad innocence,
enjoy this game akin to ripping one’s heart out?

Let my feelings deepen, I want you to let me touch even if only with my fingertips,
it’s fine if just like this I can no longer open my eyes

My dear,
one day these wishes too will no doubt be sullied and torn apart, but even so,
though blood may flow I’ll quietly remain firmly, strongly embracing the transience that continues to burn bright

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