白昼夢 ~ heidi.

「白昼夢」
heidi.

雨は降り続ける僕の心は鬱に侵されたまま

何を求め何にすがればいいの僕に出来ることと言えば
小さな部屋の片隅で蹲ることくらい

傘も持たず打たれ濡れた
ただこの雨が早く止むことを強く願って佇むだけで
僕は前が見えず止まる
そうこの場所で一人置き去りにされた孤独を噛みしめながら

どこまでも続く道なき道の先に
求めた何かはあるんだろうか
あの雲が僕を導いてくれるから
もう振り返らないでいよう

傘をささず涙騙す
この雨が止み同時に心はすぐに晴れてくれるのだろうか
僕は先を見ずに歩く
そういつか見たはずない現に強く心を囚われながら

どこまでも続く道なき道の先に
求めた何かはあるんだろうか
あの雲が僕を導いてくれるから
もう振り返らないでいよう

終わりを告げた頃の雨どうなるんだろう
静かに僕の胸に降り注ぐ
濡れた空はきっとまた涙隠すから
もう振り返らないでいよう

~♦~

‘Hakuchuumu’ {‘Daydream’}
by heidi.

Rain continues falling on my heart that remains invaded by depression

Not knowing what I want, what I should do,
cowering in the corner of this tiny room is just about all I’m capable of,

Not having an umbrella, I was pounded and soaked,
just standing there strongly wishing this rain would soon let up,
Unable to see forward, I stop
and contemplate the loneliness of being left behind all alone in this place,

Lacking a road that goes on forever,
Is there something I longed for on the path that lies ahead?
Because those clouds will guide me
I won’t look back anymore

Not putting up an umbrella, I cheat the tears,
I wonder if when this rain stops my heart will soon clear up with it?
Not looking forward, I walk,
my heart intensely captured by the reality I wasn’t ever supposed to see

Lacking a road that goes on forever,
Is there something I longed for on the path that lies ahead?
Because those clouds will guide me
I won’t look back anymore

What will the rain that heralds the end be like?
Silently pouring down on my heart,
because the drenched sky will surely hide its tears again,
I won’t look back anymore

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