睡蓮 ~ ギルガメッシュ

「睡蓮」
ギルガメッシュ

薄紅色の花びら 水面にポツリ消えてく
「寂しい」と君は言う 頷けぬままでいた

傷つけたり 誤解を招くから
口にしなきゃ 誰も巻き込まない

「投げやりだ」と「自分勝手過ぎる」と
涙が言った 「向き合いぶつけてよ」

飲み込む言葉は 少しほろ苦く
心に冷たい 痛みだけ残す
例えばこのまま もし今日死んでも
自分に偽り 後悔がないよう

言葉に変えて伝えなきゃ 伝わらない事もあるよ
そう分かり合えてても 交われはしないから
思えばいつも諦めて 強くないくせに意地張り
ただ君に頼れれば 景色も違ったはずなのにね

飲み込む言葉は 少しほろ苦く
心に冷たい 痛みだけ残す
例えばこのまま もし今日死んでも
自分に偽り 後悔がないよう

作り笑いと 嘘で塗り固めてる顔で
綺麗事並べた関係
少しでも君の瞳に 良く写りたかった

薄紅色の花びら 水面にポツリ消えてく
「寂しい」と君は言う 頷けぬままでいた
出会いが来れば必ず 別れも来ると気づいた日
終りまでその日まで 想いすべて捧ぐよ

~♦~

‘Suiren’ {‘Water Lily’}
by girugämesh

Pale red petals disappearing on the water’s surface like raindrops,
“I’m lonely” you say with your head bowed,

Because I hurt you and invite misunderstanding,
I’ve gotta say it out loud, I won’t involve anyone else,

“Irresponsible” and “too self-centered”
“Face me and let it out!” said the tears

The words I swallow are bittersweet,
cold to my heart, leave only pain behind,
For example, even if I were to die today with things this way,
so that I won’t be lying to myself, won’t have regrets

I’ve gotta turn it into words and convey it, but there are also things you can’t convey!
Even if we could both understand that we wouldn’t connect,
If I think about it I’m always giving up, acting stubborn though I’m not strong,
though the scenery should differ if I just rely on you,

The words I swallow are bittersweet,
cold to my heart, leave only pain behind,
For example, even if I were to die today with things this way,
so that I won’t be lying to myself, won’t have regrets

With a face coated in forced smiles and lies,
a relationship full of high-sounding ideas,
just a little, I wanted to look good in your eyes,

Pale red petals disappearing on the water’s surface like raindrops,
“I’m lonely” you say with your head bowed,
The day I realized that with a meeting will inevitably come a farewell,
Until the end, until that day, I offer up all my feelings!

5 thoughts on “睡蓮 ~ ギルガメッシュ”

  1. Here are the romaji:

    Usubeni iro no hanabira suimen ni potsuri kieteku

    “Sabishii” to kimi wa iu unazukenu mama de ita

    Kizutsuketari gokai o maneku kara

    Kuchi ni shinakya dare mo makikomanai

    “Nageyari da” to “jibungatte sugiru” to namida ga itta “mukiai butsukete yo”

    Nomikomu kotoba wa sukoshi horo nigaku

    Kokoro ni tsumetai itami dake nokosu

    Tatoeba kono mama moshi kyou shindemo

    Jibun ni itsuwari koukai ga nai you

    Kotoba ni kaete tsutaenakya tsutawaranai koto mo aru yo

    Sou wakariaetetemo majiware wa shinai kara
    
Omoeba itsumo akiramete tsuyokunai kuse ni ijippari

    Tada kimi ni tayorereba keshiki mo chigatta hazu na noni ne

    Nomikomu kotoba wa sukoshi horo nigaku

    Kokoro ni tsumetai itami dake nokosu

    Tatoeba kono mama moshi kyou shindemo
    
Jibun ni itsuwari koukai ga nai you

    Tsukuriwarai to uso de nuri katameteru kao de
    
Kireigoto narabeta kankei

    Sukoshi demo kimi no hitomi ni yoku utsuritakatta

    Usubeni iro no hanabira suimen ni potsuri kieteku

    “Sabishii” to kimi wa iu unazukenu mama de ita
    
Deai ga kureba kanarazu wakare mo kuru to kizuita hi

    Owari made sono hi made omoi subete sasagu yo

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